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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 01:52

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

He resisted the act ,that day.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

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Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

My family never makes their pension either.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

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This is how, and why children get BPD.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Would this be the day?

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Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

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You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

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I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

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He knew the spot.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

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Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

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She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Why did i forgive my father ?

What are the legal obligations of a new homeowner if the previous owner leaves furniture in the house after moving out?

Comes on , in middle age.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

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I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

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I of course replied” arh beautiful!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

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She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I was very sick at this time too.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

She married twice! .

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

(And it was in our own minds.)

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I think the readers, may guess!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

So whats the point in blame.

Was to survive, this bastard.

She was in good health!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I could never make a relationship work though!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Who then, do I blame.?

Put me off passion for life!!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Im still living with it.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

So, i spoilt her more .

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

We were not on the streets..

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

And i lived it daily.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I never cut or harmed myself..

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I was 9 years of age.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

She found it foreign!.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

It was going to be , some day.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

One cannot live in the past .

I will be 64.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I write beautiful poetry .

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

But, we were locked up after school.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I was scared of men, in general

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I waited trembling.

Ive learnt so much.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

This is soul school!.

What did i know ?

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I couldn’t, believe it.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

When she asked me how she looked .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

All the time i was locked up.

But ive been too sick for many years..

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

My life is so biszare .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

But it wasn’t much.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I have no regrets .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

As i do to all so called friends.?

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I said to her

She wouldn,t have been !

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I don,t even have a pension.

She loved him until the end.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I was seconnd youngest,

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

We all went to grammer schools

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.